I woke up trembling,
my heart throbbing,
wondering if death was calling,
thinking about my life,
replaying the happy times,
times when joy flowed into my soul,


I was alone,
even though I had friends all around,
I was sad,
even though laughter rung out,
I was angry,
even though there was no sorrow,


I lied awake,
thinking,
looking at the sky,
even though the walls closed in,
wondering why life moved so slow,
trying to play God,
ignoring his words,
becoming the very creature I avoided for years....


Dayne-Christopher